Love By Invitation Only by Charlotte Bingham

Author:Charlotte Bingham [Bingham, Charlotte]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2014-08-28T04:00:00+00:00

Georgiana’s return home had been, to say the least, fortunate. As soon as she had seen that Gus obviously wanted to be able to go his own way and do what he wanted and when he wanted, she realised she really did not have to sit about feeling too bad about her reunion with Kaminski.

The trouble was that she did feel bad, constantly leading her to wonder quite how she had done what she did do. How could she have done what she did? How she wondered could she have allowed Kaminski to walk back into her life and have his way with her? Sometimes, such as now when she was brushing her hair very slowly in her dressing mirror she would literally blush, just remembering that evening. Other times her shame would wake her in the night and she would just lie there again wondering about the reasons for her bad behaviour before eventually falling back asleep again, only to reawake with a start at dawn when she would finally manage to put things in a better perspective and would lie and remember how special their love had been when she would curl up, clasp her pillow to her and smile, remembering how much there was in fact to smile about when she thought about her and Kaminski.

Finally she would find herself free of guilt and thinking only of how magnificent Kaminski was, how much more powerful, intense, and exciting he was than Gus, remember-ing how he had watched her in the dark of the bar as she imagined a sultan might sit in his harem while selecting his next concubine. And therein as she realised lay Kaminski’s fascination, for since he had rejected her when she was young and beautiful, she knew that he might, all too easily do so again but for very different reasons, from boredom or even from fear of boredom. She found she could even bring herself to bear that thought, too, particularly now that Gus no longer wished to paint her and just her alone, enraptured by the texture of her alabaster skin, enthralled by her large eyes, and mesmerized by her oddly distant and seemingly aloof expression. Now that her lover had found someone else by whom to be artistically enslaved, Georgiana had in her turn a new need to be enthralled herself, or better still have someone in her thrall. For if she were being quite honest Georgiana longed for someone to be her slave, to be mesmerized by her, to be ready to be her slave and to be helpless without her, and already she had sensed even as Kaminski had left her that famous evening to return to his current amour - she knew well enough from the gossip columns all about Kaminski’s current amours – she had felt that he was in precisely the frame of mind that she liked best in a man, namely that he was finally ready first to worship her and then to die for her.

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